Update

My little world's been in a bit of upheaval as of late, as I'm getting ready for a move, looking for a new job, getting ready to open a show, and starting a new writing project. 

The final part is very exciting to me, as I discovered this online workshop through Scriptworks, (a terrific support group for Texas writers) at the perfect time.  And having just finished one project, I had a bunch of ideas flitting in and out of my head, none of them hanging around long enough for me to grab onto them and make something out of them.  So I'm hoping this five week workshop will inspire me and get a first draft out of me, as is the goal.  It started Friday and I dove right in, am journaling, watching the video links, doing the homework, but am finding myself conflicted over the constraints of the assignment, and their seeming flexibility.  But, in the vein of something I said recently about the merits of sticking with a project or idea to its finish as long as it contains enough "heat", I'm going to go ahead and start the first ten pages of it tonight and see what happens. If it sucks or I can't think of where it's going??  Maybe then I'll reconsider.

In the meantime, I move in 8 days!!!!  I haven't been prepping like I should, have found myself very unmotivated since I was let go from my job (long story, but believe me, pride will force me to elaborate) but I'm so excited about my future roommate and the fun times we will have, so I allowed that to spur me on and I started the packing process.  It's hard to ignore the inevitability of something when the evidence of it is staring you in the face.

That's all for the moment, as I'm racing off to see Man of Steel!

Wisdom From the Sage

I've been scavenging through writing prompt books as of late, to encourage my writing and  wanted to share one I completed recently.  I highly recommend it as it helped me put a lot of things in perspective.

From The Writer's Idea Book:  Prepare a list of interview questions for someone you admire.  No question is inappropriate.  Try to really find out what makes them tick.  Now look at the questions as if someone was asking them to you.  Answer them. 

Here's some of my response to the prompt (heavily edited, believe it or not, to spare you too much boredom and pomposity) with a caveat.  I do not in any way think I am all-knowing and accomplished enough to be answering some of these huge questions, but I do think it's fun, and worthwhile to try.

     (Everything I ever needed to know about life, I learned from this book)

Do you believe things happen for a reason?  That there’s some kind of a plan?

I do, with emphasis on the word "believe".  And I hope they do.  But I could never begin to understand what that reason things happen is.  

Do I believe there is a set plan, and that I’m like a pencil performing a dot-to-dot by rote,  going from one predetermined point to another?  No, I think life's more open than that.  I think that life is for us to grow, to keep becoming ourselves until we reach an apex.  The world/universe/God keeps putting experiences in our path for us to learn from until we've gotten from them what we were supposed to.  Can we avoid some experiences?  Yeah, but new ones will come to us with the same purpose in mind.  And they'll be more and more obvious what they are supposed to be teaching, until finally we are hit over the head (if that's what we need) and say "Oh, ok, I get it."  So, yeah, I think there are plans, many plans, all for our ultimate good.  And I think we can make it easier on ourselves, or harder. 
 

 

Are you grateful for the bad things that have happened in your life as well as the good?

No.  Not all of them.  Am I grateful that I was held back in the seventh grade?  Yes, because it altered my life completely and I met some very different, very wonderful people as a result.  But if I hadn’t?  If I'd gotten my act together and passed on, Mightn’t those people I met have been equally if not more wonderful?  And do all paths end up leading us as people, to the same point?  I don’t know.  I’d like to go back and make different decisions just to see what would have happened, what else I might have experienced as a result.  Am I grateful that my grandmother died?  No.  I dealt with it, and everyone has to go at some point, but I’m not grateful. 

 

 Do you think it’s possible for you to change at this point in your life, or do you think your flaws are your flaws for better or worse and there’s no getting around them, just dealing with them?

I think that yes, it’s possible to change and grow, or what’s the point?  But I also think that some challenges are with a person for as long as he lives.  They may go away for a bit, but they are just a breath away from coming back.  Sometimes I'll be in charge of my issues and other times not.  Some of them I will have beaten eventually, according to other people's definition of that word, but not my own. 
 
Take our addictions.  We may come to a point where we don't succumb to them every day, or ever, but they still have a pull on us, and sometimes a very strong pull.  With hard work we might get to the point where we learn to control and manage our dark cravings, but those demons don’t ever really go away, or if they do they are still closer than we may think. 

I think we each have a certain set of challenges in our life that are ours.  And they define us.  They are uniquely ours and we can make them tools or obstacles.   

 What kinds of stories are you attracted to?  Stories with magic.  Because magical properties are a great way to illuminate or point up the truth.  Magic is one way of raising the stakes.  It makes anything possible.  You can raise to greater heights or lower depths when magic is involved.  That’s why I love these stories.  One of my favorite movies is  Bell, Book and Candle with Jimmy Stewart and Kim Novak, partly because it stretches the boundaries of what is possible.  What happens when a beautiful bohemian witch, who physically cannot cry, learns how?  A really good story, in my opinion.

 

 

 

 

"Thoughts on A Creative Career"

Found this video really thought provoking, and think it pertains to anyone who has that innate desire to write, paint, act, or create and not just the young ones.

Happy Birthday, Judy!!

My obsession began early, and except for the short period of time between age ten and thirteen when I did my best to put away the pursuits I considered less than masculine, I have been faithful.  For me, she is my guiding star, the wounded healer who worked through the wounds to find the joy, and who was courageous enough to share all the longing, giddiness, conviction and radiance she possessed.  

There's a clip I can't help but share every year, as for me it simply captures her like no other video.  It's a performance of "When the Sun Comes Out" from the first episode of her short lived television variety show.  I've paired it with the Jack Parr interview that showed what a charismatic raconteur she was and made the series that was to follow this appearance possible.

 

 

 

 

Happy 91st, Judy!

"Stories We Tell"

Until today I was only familiar with Sarah Polley as a Canadian actress and I'm so glad I got over my sour grapes attitude which at least aided to my subconscious avoidance of her directorial debut, Away From Her,  and its follow-up, both of which have been critically praised.  Last month, however, I saw a preview for her latest film, a personal documentary which explored her family's history and the story of Sarah's birth that had long been joked about.  I was instantly drawn in, not by the possible salaciousness, as much as by a sense of longing and nostalgia for stories and people lost to us.

 

I found the complete film profoundly moving, and it has been playing in the back of my mind for the rest of the day and into the evening, needling and poking at me with it's not completely answerable questions about truth, and memory, and fairness.  It's playing at the Regal Arbor 8, and The Violet Crown here in Austin, and I highly recommend it.  

Creepy Kid's Stuff

This video is both awesome and creepy to the highest degree.  If I'd been these kids I'd have been terrified.  Hum Bear and "Melody Mouse" are getting a surprise ready for Sally in the middle of the night.  Just in case you didn't know that toys like to party, too.  Really starts about 2 minutes in.

Judy and Avedon

I'll admit it.  I am completely obsessed.  And as the days get closer to what would have been Judy's 91st birthday (June 10th), I've been inspired to drag my sorry butt back to the blog and share the obsession.

Today I want to focus on the Richard Avedon portraits.  Avedon was a high fashion photographer for Vogue, and is one of the best portrait photographer out there.  His series "In the American West" is brilliant, and his celebrity photos are so intimate and truthful.  He took many photos of Judy throughout the fifties and sixties.  Below is just a sample: 

(Judy and Richard, 1956)